BLOOMING in blessings

 

I am growing so much in a few days and I am so proud of me. I have placed myself in a bit of a pickle toward the end of this quarter. I am not worried anymore however because I think that I am having to learn the same lesson over and over. I am bad at spending and I am spending money on my sugar addiction. I am happy that there are some things that I was able to get done this week and I am going to spend some time running down the list: 

1. BARC account is clear

2. Groceries on limited budget-

3. Walking for the week 

4. Assignments for the week were done on time- and done well 

5. Took medications this week on time 

6. Medical appointments are scheduled 

7. Graduation outfit secured 

8. Spoke with  my auntie, my brother and my twins sister this week...I feel better 

I think that speaking to my family made a difference and I was actually pretty happy this week on a high level and I haven't actually been able to be happy for my upcoming graduation, but I genuinely am so proud of me. God I thank you for always being with me. I am not looking forward to the religious routine that is awaiting for me back home 

I believe that I will be able to get a job soon and I am grateful that I will get there. I will be a homeowner by 35. In Jesus name I will have $200,000 saved by 2029/2030. In Jesus name I will continue my education. I will be studious over my expenses and payback my student loans and not have to worry about it, I will have a retirement account so that I can be old in peace. Whether it is with a man or not. I will loose the weight and stay active even after I go home. I will be studying everyday for the LSATs and I will get into law school on a scholarship. I thankyou lord that I will be taking care of my health and not become a victim to diabetes or insulin resistance. Lord help me to be focused on ME... In Jesus name- Amen. 

Lord. I am so undeciscive about everything in life. But I know that I can do so much more with life. God I have some more work to do, but I know that I can do this and get it all done. One thing at a time. I am proud of me. No one will ever know the loneliness it is to know that you don't have anyone (physically) and no one has you....I try not to gripe on this, but it is the reality. But I don't know if I will eevr get married. I kind of want the attention and the companionship. But then again, I see Aisa on Tiktok and she just bought her house and it looks the way that she wants it to and she is be outside doing the things that she enjoys. I want this life. But I have a road ahead of me to stay focused. Not on the right now, but on the future.