February Updates

 

So the month of February has arrived and passed. It was honestly pretty fast. Here we are in week eight of the quarter and I am just in shock at how hard things have been recently. I have gotten so out of control. My eating had spiraled again, and it just is another testament to how much I let the outside stuff affect me inside. I am better now, but I am seriously considering dropping out. I am not really too excited about graduating. Mainly because I have no idea if I can or not. Can I still apply even if I am not technically in the major yet? I am struggling to say the least. 

On another note, I am doing better in my mind. I am not as negative as I have been in the past days. I usually would be thinking of the worst of the worst at a time like this, but here we are, and we are not giving up yet. I am still in the game and I am still here! I am not going to let these little girls ruin the time that I have left and I am going to get things back on track. Let's lose some of this weight, focus on ourselves, and get up! There is no time to just lay around and let life kick me in the butt! Get up ASHLEY. Make your mark, and get to where you know you can get to. I need a job, stop taking out loans, pay down on my principal, get this weight off, and Graduate with a double major in Psychological Brain Sciences and Sociology. 

Well, this is enough talking for now, I have things that need to get done and they won't if I sit around. So here's to getting up and trying again! Hopefully, we can stay focused and not sweat the small stuff! Alrighty!!!

This is going to be a sort of ling post but there are many things that I wish that I WAS DOING MORE CONFIDENTLY. And I want to be a person that just shows up for myself more. I want to be more consistent and do the thigns that I know to do. On another note, I can see that my hair is growing. I am seeing some gray strands, but I am not hung up on it. I am gaining my wisdom stripes lol. I just don't want to go bald. if that makes sense. I have been trying some new styles and I amay have lost hair from not taking it down correctly, and stress, and sleeping without my satin scarf... I am going to adjust and keep note. We are NOT GOING TO GIVE UP. THE LIFE THAT I WANT IS CLOSER THAN I REALIZE