The Best Decision ever made

 The best decision ever made was the one that was made with you and the ones that you love in mind. The one where you placed God's will above ALL. The decision that scared you the most. I know that the decision that we need to make is the one that terrifies us. 

My decision to finally change my eating habits came at a time when I was stressed to the max. I was stressed about finals, moving, packing, unpacking, money and lord knows what else. As a binge eater, it can feel tiring having to constantly fight off the need to eat. To mindlessly want to chew on something all day. Some people won't understand that struggle. For some, they say the decision to stop eating is easy, and I would agree with it. But the commitment to the decision is the one that is hardest. 

It requires you to honor it. I have been binge eating off and on for the past two months and the results were catastrophic. I ended up stopping after I came back home and deleted Doordash, Instagram, and Facebook from my phone. There are times when I think about how hard some things are and how often we have to fight for the things that we want in life. Without distractions, the temptation doesn't appear as much. Without the constant food ads, commercials, and Instagram posts of what I am eating and doing from the next person,  helps me. So I need to go on not just a diet, but also a cleanse of the mind. So I am not subjecting myself to so much temptation. I think of it now as a person that says they are done with drugs and then are constantly around people that shoot up. And advertise it to them like, "Won't you try it?". I am an addict. No two ways to look at it. I am. No more lying to myself. I have to get real. TODAY. I am ready Today is day 2. And we are on the way.  One step at a time. I hope you are on your way with me. 

What has been the hardest thing about this past month for you? Are you taking any steps? Feeling stuck? Or maybe your on track, but not reaching the right goal. Are you currently in a binge cycle? What feelings are you avoiding, and suppressing with food? Comment below.