Loosing Balance

 So this week started off rocky and is ending up rocky still. I am in a bit of a predicament. I did not renew the tags on my car that is back in Modesto, and it got a ticket. This is not a shock to me, seeing as I had let the registration lapse, however... 

It just keeps getting better. I am finding out that my last quarter here may have to be extended and I will have to do summer again...And that is if everything goes well. The cynicism has also crept in, I'm sure you can hear it. I want to be positive, but things are hard right now. And I am feeling...Feelings again. I was hopeful that I could do this and be in a better place. But I don't feel very successful. I FEEL OFF 

It always seems to be that when I get back on track in one area, It feels just as off again in another area. I know that this is just God telling me to get my behind-back on track. But I am struggling to keep up. I am feeling like a failure and I would be lying if I said that the urge to curl up in bed with a 10 pc lemon pepper wing combo and never appear again. But I can't do that anymore. No more hiding! We have to stand up and do the best that we can with what we can. Money is a bit of a problem as well. I don't know if I can even cover the car registration and now a citation on top of regular living. 

So we also need a job. On top of everything else that I am struggling with. But rest easy that whatever God has in store for me, I can get through this. 

No long speel today, things to do and people to see, lol. But I will check in again soon. That is the best I can do. That is one thing for certain.